4th June 2001

I went for a bike ride today on my Koga Miyata Randonneur, the first time I’ve used it since having KLM ship it over here. How shameful!

pompeiisneaks had to turn back after the Golden Gate, due to breathing difficulties, but Matt and I continued on up the Marin Headlands.

Matt stopped to take some photos with his Nikon Coolpix 950 (the same model of camera I have), so I continued up the hill before eventually encountering Andrew G., a fellow Linuxcare employee. We biked to the summit together and chatted for a while in the sun, until eventually joined by Matt.

Then, the three of us enjoyed a great downhill experience, although weaving in an out of the cars is a real pain in the arse.

We continued down to Sausalito and enjoyed milkshakes and ice-cream in the June sun of San Francisco Bay. If this sounds like a simple pleasure, it is, and I am grateful for it. It reminds me of the joy I used to experience in feeding the newborn ducklings in the Sarphatipark, back in Amsterdam.

Biking always has a great purging effect on my mind. Everything suddenly comes into focus, you become acutely aware of your own wonderful insignificance, and return home with a refreshed view of your life.

Conclusion: Sarah is the only thing in my life that truly matters right now, and she matters more than anything else that has ever figured in my four-and-thirty years on this earth.

So, what else has been going on lately?

Well, I’ve been playing with iptables a lot, including multiple match extensions. Stateful firewalling has brought Linux to the stage that it really can rival a Cisco PIX for securing a company’s networks.

Last week, we got the new Linuxcare network up and running in San Francisco. I also bid a fond farewell to fellow sysadmin, Matt, with whom I have had so much pleasure working. Thanks for everything, Matt.

I’ll still see him on our biking trips, but it saddens me a lot to no longer be able to work alongside him. The same goes for Phil, Anne and Kelly.

The sadness of seeing my merry band of colleagues erode in this way has led me to conclude that my best time at Linuxcare lies behind me. I’ve therefore decided to call it a day and move on to a new chapter in my life.

Accordingly, I’ll be going to work for Google in a few weeks. There are some serious technical challenges to rise to down there in Mountain View, and I’m very excited about joining the team. If only the bloody H-1B transfer would hurry up and come through!

Since I don’t fancy the hellish commute along highway 101 south, Sarah and I will probably end up moving down into Silicon Valley somewhere at the end of the summer. Palo Alto has my vote, though that may be too far for comfort, considering Sarah’s commute into San Francisco.

Exciting times lie ahead, I’m sure.

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1st June 2001

I would like to dedicate the following poem, Lucy by William Wordsworth (1770 – 1850), to all the people with whom I have worked at Linuxcare, who — for one reason or another — are no longer with the company.

                                     I
                   STRANGE fits of passion have I known:
                           And I will dare to tell,
                       But in the lover's ear alone,
                           What once to me befell.
 
                When she I loved look'd every day
                           Fresh as a rose in June,
                       I to her cottage bent my way,
                           Beneath an evening moon.
 
 
                       Upon the moon I fix'd my eye,
                      All over the wide lea;
                  With quickening pace my horse drew nigh
                          Those paths so dear to me.
 
                    And now we reach'd the orchard-plot;
                         And, as we climb'd the hill,
                 The sinking moon to Lucy's cot
                         Came near and nearer still.
 
                   In one of those sweet dreams I slept,
                         Kind Nature's gentlest boon!
                      And all the while my eyes I kept
                      On the descending moon.
 
                     My horse moved on; hoof after hoof
                        He raised, and never stopp'd:
                     When down behind the cottage roof,
                      At once, the bright moon dropp'd.
 
            What fond and wayward thoughts will slide
                             Into a lover's head!
                       `O mercy!' to myself I cried,
                          `If Lucy should be dead!'
 
                                     II
                     She dwelt among the untrodden ways
                    Beside the springs of Dove;
                   A maid whom there were none to praise,
                            And very few to love.
 
                         A violet by a mossy stone
                          Half-hidden from the eye!
                 --Fair as a star, when only one
                            Is shining in the sky.
 
                   She lived unknown, and few could know
                           When Lucy ceased to be;
                      But she is in her grave, and, O!
                       The difference to me!
 
                                    III
                       I travell'd among unknown men
                           In lands beyond the sea;
                     Nor, England! did I know till then
                          What love I bore to thee.
 
                'Tis past, that melancholy dream!
                          Nor will I quit thy shore
                      A second time, for still I seem
                         To love thee more and more.
 
                       Among thy mountains did I feel
                       The joy of my desire;
                    And she I cherish'd turn'd her wheel
                           Beside an English fire.
 
                 Thy mornings show'd, thy nights conceal'd
                        The bowers where Lucy play'd;
              And thine too is the last green field
                          That Lucy's eyes survey'd.
 
                                     IV
                  Three years she grew in sun and shower;
                    Then Nature said, `A lovelier flower
                          On earth was never sown:
                This child I to myself will take;
                     She shall be mine, and I will make
                             A lady of my own.
 
                       `Myself will to my darling be
                     Both law and impulse: and with me
                  The girl, in rock and plain,
                  In earth and heaven, in glade and bower,
                       Shall feel an overseeing power
                           To kindle or restrain.
 
                     `She shall be sportive as the fawn
               That wild with glee across the lawn
 
                        Or up the mountain springs;
                   And her's shall be the breathing balm,
                     And her's the silence and the calm
                         Of mute insensate things.
 
           `The floating clouds their state shall lend
                      To her; for her the willow bend;
                         Nor shall she fail to see
                      E'en in the motions of the storm
                  Grace that shall mould the maiden's form
                       By silent sympathy.
 
                    `The stars of midnight shall be dear
                     To her; and she shall lean her ear
                           In many a secret place
                 Where rivulets dance their wayward round,
               And beauty born of murmuring sound
                         Shall pass into her face.
 
                       `And vital feelings of delight
                   Shall rear her form to stately height,
                          Her virgin bosom swell;
                Such thoughts to Lucy I will give
                       Where she and I together live
                         Here in this happy dell.'
 
                   Thus Nature spake--The work was done--
                      How soon my Lucy's race was run!
                    She died, and left to me
                   This heath, this calm and quiet scene;
                        The memory of what has been,
                          And never more will be.
 
                                     V
                       A slumber did my spirit seal;
                      I had no human fears:
                   She seem'd a thing that could not feel
                         The touch of earthly years.
 
                      No motion has she now, no force;
                         She neither hears nor sees;
             Roll'd round in earth's diurnal course
                      With rocks, and stones, and trees.
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21st May 2001

The stress of the last week has ebbed away thanks to a very relaxing weekend. Saturday was spent driving around Palo Alto, eating gelato and looking for a nice neighbourhood in which to live.

Sunday was spent cleaning and doing nothing in particular.

Using Google’s link: feature at the weekend, I was surprised to find a link to Caliban giving me a Best of Linux award for signature. Thanks, Dave.

Companies to watch:

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17th May 2001

Today was very hectic, but I feel good and relieved.

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16th May 2001

Yesterday was an interesting day. Can’t say more than that.

Today was more interesting. Can’t say more than that.

Tomorrow will be even more interesting. Can’t say more than that.

I need to get to the end of this week as soon as possible. There’s just too much excitement and uncertainty right now, and I need a resolution to all of this so that I can come up for air again.

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